"Hanya ingin tetap tersenyum"

Setelah lama menghilang dia hadir lagi, aku biarkan semuanya terus berjalan mesti jelas pahit, hati sakit..
aq mengerti mengapa dia melakukan semua ini..yayayaya,,
dia menginginkan aq berdampingan dengan seseorang yg lebih baik dari dirinya...
harusnya aq pahami itu..bukan malah membencinya atau bersumpah serapa kepadanya. langit mendung, hujan menghitam dan awan bergejolakk..

Aq takut..aq takut bila mencoba melupakannya, karena kenangan justru akan terlihat semakin jelas apabila aku berusaha untuk mendelete namanya dari daftar ingatan ini.
aq masih menyimpang smua smsnya, pemberiannya, terlebih rasa sayangnya..
tapi semua itu terhenti ketika dia berdampingan dengan wanita lain..ternyata, secepat itu dia melupakanku..
busukk..aq benci akan penghianatan, ternyata semua kata manis itu..hanya berlaku ketika kita saling mencintai..selanjutnya, jelas hanya kebahagian untuk diri sendiri itu lebih penting..egoiss..
Namun, ketika pertanyaan ini semakin jelas..aku mulai mendapatkan jawabannya..dia tetap seprti malaikat manja yang selalu menjagaku..ternyata lagi-lagi dia melakukan ini karena rasa sayang yang begitu besar..dan berharap aku dapat segera melupakannya dan fokus dengan kehidupan baru ku..aku kecewa...
terlebih..kami masi saling berhubungan baikk, mau dibilang apa..aku meneruskan..ia melanjutkan..
dan kisah yang ada hanya sebongkah kasih bisu..biru..
Namun aku tak perduli akan berakhir seperti apa nanti,,hanya ingin tetap tersenyum agar dia tahu aku selalu bahagia...

Not With Me Feat Fade2Black

oleh: Bondan Prakoso

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I'm waking up from my summer dreams again
try to thinking if you're alright
then i'm shattered by the shadows of your eyes
knowing you're still here by my side

Reff :
I can see you if you're not with me
i can say to my self if you're okay
i can feel you if you're not with me
i can reach you my self, you show me the way

Life was never be so easy as it seems
'till you come and bring your love inside
no matter space and distance make it look so far
still i know you're still here by my side

Back to Reff :
Yeah… you're made me so alive,
you give the best for me…
love and fantasy
yeah…
and i never feel so lonely,
coz you're always here with me… yeah…
always here with me

Back to Reff :

I'm waking up from my summer dreams again
try to thinking if you're alright
then i'm shattered by the shadows of your eyes
knowing you're still here by my side

Bondan Prakoso

 

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What The Hell

oleh: Avril Lavigne

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You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...
La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la